Scatterbrained

Dec 22
It's been over a month since I last wrote, but it's been on my mind for a while now to update. It takes a certain mood, mind set, patience to sit down and write about life. I enjoy doing it, but I'm a lazy bum quite frankly and getting high and doing nothing still really appeals to me. Having said that, time out while I roll a spliff...

alright, where was I? Oh yea, "tis the season..."

Tis the season to count our blessings. I'm so blessed, it baffles me sometimes. And not even in the religious sense. I mean, in life in general. Tis the season to be jolly, to eat well, to laugh a lot, to drink a lot. I lost count of the number parties I went to this month. There were many. Going out dancing.. I think it's become a joke to me. I'm always too wasted. It's always too cold, and the long walk home sucks. I wish I were at home with my family, sitting on the fireplace mantel with my back exposed to a hot fire. My little brother and I used to see who could make their back the hottest.

I've been thinking a lot about life lately. In many ways. About friends, the people we meet. It seems the older we get, the more we appreciate every person who comes into our lives. Whether it be for a short period of time or long; whether they be a positive vibration or a tremble that we are forced to learn patience with. I was talking to a good friend of mine last night and the topic of loving others came up. What do you do when there is someone who develops hatred for you, whom you never intended of offending? Of course the answer is just to love them even more. In that sense, we learn blind compassion. It's damn hard.


Dec 23
This past month hasn't been too eventful. Oh wait!! There was Thanksgiving. and out of my 12 classes, I had ONE STUDENT who knew a damn thing about turkey day. The American assistants got together to celebrate this wondrous day. We had a turkey, which BLT managed to cook in a microwave!! Bravo BLT!! She also had her parents import us some cranberry sauce. mmm!! There was much drinking, PLENTY of food. I brought the salad. But there was also stuffing, mashed potatoes and gravy, corn, zucchini, squash, green beans, and of course, baguette, and lots of wine. We had Thanksgiving dinner with the assistants on Friday, but on Thursday, Me BLT and Thang had dinner at Brittany's house. I think it was Lasagna and salad and vegetables. It was Thang's first thanksgiving.


Dec 24
Ok... It's taken me about 3 days (no joke) to write this blog.
It's now Christmas eve. I think everyone in my apartment building has left. Today feels like one of the most quiet days of my life. Not only have all the assistants (sauf Bryan) left out of town either to other countries or back to USA, but Tours is one of those towns that people leave for vacation, not come to. I've seen a couple people who look like they're from Scandinavia or something. Abnormally tall men.

No one has been getting online. Which sucks because there's no one to chat with. Except Alex. I can't believe she's had MSN this whole time and I haven't known! She's the other love of my life. I love her! I think she knows me best these days. And I miss her so much. I hope she will be able to come visit me this February with my sister. She wants to go to Amsterdam, haha. And a foam party ^_^.


I spoke with John-Mercer's little brother Micah yesterday and come to find out he(Micah) is coming back to Deutschland tomorrow, Christmas. But he's going to be in Munich, way to far in the south to try and meet up with him. But what made me smile really big was when I went to the post office today and mailed JMega's carepackage AND Micah's Christmas card with money for my tshirt. I wasn't expecting to send two things today, but it was sweet that it was to two boys in the same family. I miss them.

But I can't wait to go to Deutschland myself on wednesday (2 days)!! I have to find my Titre de Sejour... I lost it somewhere in my bedroom. I made copies of it at school one afternoon. That was the last I remember seeing it. I suppose if I find the copy I made, I'll find it.

My neighbors keep throwing things out into the hallway that they no longer want. Yesterday I scored these neat clothing storage shelves in the hallway... (dude, it took me so long to think of how to call it! haha. It was a toss up between that and clothing storage furniture ^_^HI). It's a lazy monday. I doubt there will be cafe des langues tonight, haha. But I'll be looking into some German to prepare myself for my trip. I bought a bilingual book today. I think it's some love story, but it has the text in german and cross-referenced in french. (make sense?) So when you open it up, all the left pages of the book are in german, all the right sides are french.
Why does this blog feel so technical? I think I've completely forgotten my english, haha.

Hmm... Not too much else going on on my side of the world. My mind has quieted down since this morning. I my mom put some money in the bank for me. More than what I was expecting. So I bought a train ticket to Paris for the last 5 days of vacation when I get back from Berlin. YAY! It's going to feel so good wandering for 10 days straight. well... a long ass bus ride, wandering, another bus ride, a train ride, wandering, a train ride, and then sleep. That sounds so beautiful to me. If you only knew. Im planning a 2nd trip to Deutschland already, to Mainz to visit Mikey. Bus tickets are only 50 round trip from Tours, so its just a matter of choosing dates.

One of my students told me I was awesome before I left on break. They're starting to LOVE me. and that makes me happy ^_^.

Oh, hah. How could I have forgotten. I've decided to move to Spain come May, for about 2 months. Just to chill out. That's the plan so far, and then maybe go to Deutschland in July. But... we'll see how things unfold. I'm just not ready to go back to the states yet. It's much too soon, and I'm too high up to come back down now. I wanna see where the wind takes me in this liberated zone I've found myself in. What's tight is that I'll get the security deposit back from my landlord at the end of April. I'll go ahead and buy my plane ticket ahead of time and start saving come... well, next pay check. So I'll be heading to Spain with a chunk of change. I wrote to Maktub yesterday, so I'm awaiting their response to see if I can work/live there or not. If not Maktub, I'll see about Rambutan. That might be pretty sweet too, up there in the mountains. mmm... how I love Spain in the middle of the summer. But check this! If I score the job in Granada, that means I'll be able to go to Morocco! Big plans for 2008. Stay tuned.

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