this past week was my first week working with the kids every day. there were still some class periods where the teachers were not ready for me yet, but i had the chance to talk with the kids, tell them a little about atlanta/usa, myself... already after only one week i know who my brightest students are, the ones who need more attention, the ones who need more discipline, the shy kids... i intercepted my first note that was being passed in the back of class ^_^. i think the girls were shocked that i actually said something, but id be pissed if it were me teaching. yea. im going to spoil a lot of kids hopes for an easy TA. im a firm believer in discipline. and i am not afraid to beat your childs ass.
and actually, this week has gone by pretty... slow? besides going to the prefecture to get the extent on my visa, ive just been laying low, chillin with mary jane.
today i was up around noon and eleni came over around 1 so i could go with her to the pharmacy. theres a little drama going down in my apt building. so the columbian was spittin mad game at my greek friend. but hes got a girlfriend. and weve both met her. but the other night, somehow everyone decided to squeeze into my space to chill. ive been smokin herb all day, the columbian and her are both drinkin. next thing i know hes makin moves at her while theyre on my bed. i mean, whatever... you guys be sneaky. do what you do. but just figure that shit out in someone elses place. not mine. cause i dont want nothin to do with whats goin down. they finally left around... 230-3am... i dont think i got to bed until 5 that night.
well the condom broke. so i went with my friend not the following day, but the next day to get the morning after pill. let your lesson be learned kids. this shit is reality in yo face!
i also bought a new blanket for my bed!! its starting to get pretty cold and i dont want to have to wear a whole jogging suit to bed. or a room full of pillows would always be nice. there was also a sale on scarfs!! ,50 euro a piece!!! i got like... 6,50 in scarfs, so... 9/10 scarfs! yea. theyre all real cute.
WOW!! i learned how to put pictures in this thing!! awww snap!! time to go back and edit some blogs. alright, ill do that later.
so after a little shopping we came back to my spot and chilled, then she went home, and i went out to watch the rugby match. it was france vs england, and sadly enough france lost.
ive been having the strangest feelings lately. like im utterly within a dream, within a dream. some days the feeling is stronger than others. the certain people i meet. the settings in which i meet them. my being in france! perhaps this feeling is the feeling of enlightenment, of growing. i feel i dreamed a lot more when i was younger because there was so much that i didnt know. and now that ive moved to another world- because it is a whole different world- i have to learn everything all over again. but the odd thing is, i feel as if all that im learning now, my reality as it is right now, is just a much clearer, a much more graspable replication of the dreams i had as a child. the names of the people in my life are what ring a bell most. i was never able to place faces with my dreams then. im plagued with deja vu.
i just think of it as im in the right place, at the right time, doing exactly what i need to be doing in my life. i cant over think tomorrow or expect too much, or not prepare enough.
the first school holiday is coming up!!! its october 27- november 8, and im going to paris and amsterdam!! the plan is to go to paris for a couple days and then catch the train to the dam to meet up with matt p and valerie. go to the museum night. smoke some good maybe. that sorta thing. i just have to check the funds. hopefully ill get paid by the end of october, but theres really no way of telling. damn... i really want to go. cross your fingers for me. i still have 2 weeks to live on $300 AND pay for that trip... yarrrrrg!
the german TA thang ended up moving down the hall in the nice room i wanted but couldnt afford. hes pretty cool. i dont know why, but i have this odd thinking that because he speaks german and french that he should speak english too... but every time i start to talk to him in english, or if he starts to say two word s in english, he has to speak french. his parents are vietnamese, but he grew in dresde germany. hes teaching me german, and verlan- the dirrrty french slang!
im really quite proud of myself. ive woken up on time every morning so far for class. i havent been late yet!! seriously, this is a lifetime record. ive been late my whole life. its because im absent minded and i drift easily, i cant focus, forget my thoughts, forget my mind...
um... i also got my first summer job offer tossed at me. as an opair in bordeaux. for a small family with 2 kids- a 3year old and a 1year old. id have my own apt in the attic. and i could stay as long as id like. damn... im really not coming back.
my determination to perfect my french is getting stronger. i hate talking in english. and i hate not being able to follow 100% with what someone is saying. and i hate when people say i have a slight accent. so, this is what i need to improve. i just wish i could find a chill subculture to mingle with. "je n'ai pas l'habitude de parler." im not in the habit of speaking. i speak fine with adults, but im not yet comfortable talking with people my age. its a much more comfortable, relaxed french. that street french. ill find it. theres just so much youth, that plastic, all for the image, barbie shit. and its such a uniformed look. theres not very much variation or diversity here. so pretty much im free to do whatever i want.
well, im pretty tired. that weed i got is pretty good. but ive smoked about half already.
im feeling less inspired to write and more inspired to dream lately. im still getting used to my early schedule so bare with me for the time being.
much much love
joanna
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